Living with an eating disorder can one of the loneliest things in the world. There is a lot of darkness inside and you feel very lost indeed. There are nights when you lie awake, terrified and dreading the day. Sometimes you lash out at your parents or someone you love because you binged that day. Sometimes you isolate yourself in your room and mechanically scroll through the internet, feeling a numbing emptiness. You can go to parties and see your friends but you’re never really there, your mind is far away. Hunger frightens you but fullness scares you more, you either eat way too much or not at all. There is no one to turn to, you would rather pretend you are fine than let others know how broken you are and let them see into the depths of your crazy mind for fear they might run away.